Never Enough

A few of my favorite moms, Jenn-my beloved sister, Nan- the eldest mom, Mama- the one who raised me right

A few of my favorite moms, Jenn-my beloved sister, Nan- the eldest mom, Mama- the one who raised me right

Today is Mother's Day.  A day to tell your mom you love her, take her out to brunch and make sure she gets that massage that she's needed for the past 4 months.  My Mom is on the other coast, so instead I took some time to write about the gifts I've received and how proud I am to be her daughter.

I sit quietly with a bowl full of words in my lap

the combination of all those things you've taught me throughout the years, the things I received just by watching the proud and fearless woman that you are, the lessons that have shaped me, the words that inspire me to be my best self, the words that you gave me to guide me in to who I am today

power, courageous, resilience, loving, nurture, wonder, strength, guidance, care, determined, capable, prowess, selfless, dedicated, brilliant, strong, faithful, loyal, passionate, driven

this bowl full of words

mixed with all the things I've never said that I wanted to and the words that I've said out of anger or fear and the words that seem bigger than I can say out loud and the words that have taught me to follow my own curiosity and seek my own magic 

all the words

I sit today with my bowl full of words you've given me, and pull out some of my favorites to give back to you Mama

gratitude, pride, encouragement, strength, compassion, love...

There will never be enough words to say how  blessed I am to have you as my Mom.  

 


To all the powerful, loving, selfless Moms in my life, I thank you for giving endlessly, caring deeply and living proudly to be the examples that we need for our future.  You are LOVED.

My Life is a Holiday!

Chichen itza

Chichen itza

Everybody has a story, and if you take the time to write it down, it's probably pretty epic.  

I lived a solid decade of my life globetrotting, meandering and creating art in the most glorious places. The title of my never written memoir was to be "My Life is a Holiday!"  and in reality it was.

I created a world that I could pick a place and go there, get most or all expenses covered, and leave with a wealth of satisfying memories and a bag full of money.  Life was good.  I earned a handsome living while adding 15 country stamps to my passport and I think I paid for maybe 2 of those flights.  I worked hard, I played harder.  I had amazing friends all over the world and a legacy of co-created artwork that shall live longer than my physical body.  

But as the story goes, all good things must come to an end...  

or in my opinion, lead to something better.  

I didn't realize the tremendous benefits of the life I had created until I got burnt out, needed a big change and had no exit strategy.  I had become accustomed to all the amazing attributes and ignored all the negative side effects.  The bad began to overshadow and I could no longer see the good.  Time to change what wasn't working...

My partner and I were creating a beautiful life together in NYC and Woodstock.  He came home one day and said "Do you want to move to California?"  Just as I was in swimming in the awkward place of "What do I do with my life now?!#$@" in walks the idea for the perfect reset button!  Seemed like divine timing.  I was ready for all the changes.  Starting fresh with all new everything made sense and I didn't have to do it alone. Bonus!


Change is inevitable in life (or at least the life I want to live).  The goal is to be ready to ride the wave when it hits you.  Swimming is way more fun when you have the comfort of seeing the shore and the skills to keep your head above water.


That's a tiny sliver of my story.  I've been firmly planted in the Bay Area of California for 4 years now.  I've taken 4 holidays as an adult that weren't work related.  Two, with my love, for the sole purpose of just being, not doing.  One journey to Tulum that was at the beginning of my journey in to deep personal work and where I created "The Essence Project", my mission and this life's purpose.  And then this last holiday, back to Tulum for a reset, to reconnect to my creative inspiration that sometimes tends to wander off all on its own.  I realized recently that I've been 200% dedicated to building this new business in a different way and ignoring my desire to seek my dream.  You can't tame a wanderlust.  

It's taken me a few years to realize the photography business that I want to create and it seems rather obvious that I'll never give up my desire for adventure and love of the beauty and grandeur of nature.  It's where I find my magic, my peace, and my sanity.  These are poignant elements of my being.

I found this great quote that makes it all make sense...  

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing"- Helen Keller

I went to Tulum with a list of intentions and am returning home with the same list undone, but a deeper connection to the life I want to create and the business I want to create in it. 

All this to say that I will be incorporating my love and need to travel in to my photography business and am looking for inspired and passionate wanderers to join me! 

First destination: Sedona.  

 

June 19-24th :: 

I'll be creating magic in the red rocks and am inviting 3 amazing women to join me.  As a super, crazy bonus, I have deals on travel and accommodations as well.

 It doesn't get any better!   

More details, click here: 

https://candace-smith-yook.squarespace.com/sedona-application

 

The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes" -Marcel Proust